Dear Madeleine,
Hi: Words sometimes are not to be found in expressing our thoughts and most of all concern for one whom we care for.
That is how I am as I start this letter, but Id like to share a few thoughts.
Fern, wants us to remember him lovingly, but the kind of person he was, would want that we all continue leading a normal and fruitful life the best we can at this particular time.
I know it is hard for you to go on, almost seems impossible at times. What you are going through did not happen to me in the same way when Be (nickname for Alfred) and Marcel died.
I faced these fears, etc. before death came.
With Be from the day he left. I was so young, still on a honeymoon it seems but always in my mind was what will I do if he dies? Jackie needs her father, he loved her so, then being pregnant, fears, anxieties. This new child might never see his father, nor Be set his eyes on our newborn. We had prayed for a boy, how happy he would have been.
I am not saying I went through what you are experiencing but so many thoughts and uncertainties, fears, loneliness I had before. And after Be died, even many years after, what kind of life we might have had, how he would have looked, our family, our position in life, our growing old together. So many, I cannot recall.
When Eddy was born, never will he know his father.
I agree its difficult but they were shattered dreams.
I am not saying this for pity, but for you to understand that maybe, I can relate to your anguish and I know it is not easy.
Of course with Marcel, you were there always. It wasnt after he died me it was before.
I wanted to share a few thoughts with you, guess I got carried away but Im hoping youll receive them as well-meaning for your uplifting only and know that I care.
Peace of Christ
all my Love,
Rita
P.S. As I was ready to seal my envelope Jackie was reading an article, and asked me to look it over, maybe you would like it.
P.S. Madeleine dont give up. Fight it all the way. We all need you.
Remember the Serenity Prayer.
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